06/18/2026
Two years ago today, my husband, Doug Deal died. Although the three years he survived after COVID devastated his lungs were definitely the hardest of my life, picking up the pieces in the last two years has been much harder than I imagined.
Doug was instrumental to my law firm. He built Deal Law Firm from the internet up, on server space we owned: he began coding my website and email several years before we even decided I would enter private practice. He managed every technological aspect of my firm, hardware to software and everything in between. He managed my advertising, social media, Google business account, SEO, VOIP...if there was something that involved a machine, Doug managed it. I didn't even have to program my own cellphone.
(He also cooked most of the meals, bought the rest, and served as backup in every imaginable way to support my career, sometimes even sitting in on trials so that I had a "second chair" when the state brought in half their staff during a murder trial -- but I digress.)
Doug's friends have helped me get my website up and running again after his death. Running your own website, on your own server, is challenging if you have zero knowledge or understanding of computer programming. Last night, after procrastination on my end (and a shortening of the lifespan of security certificates), I was forced to face the challenge.
For many long hours, and with the help of Claude AI, I worked through the steps to renew my website certificate (which keep my website "alive"). When the intense focus on the screen caused my head to pound, I stopped for the night. After work today, I dove back in....and I got it done.
It is so hard starting over, especially after such dark and difficult years. Doug was my cheerleader. I never expected more from my law career than to be an underpaid ADA in a small county, but he saw my talent in the courtroom (sometimes literally, like when he took off work to come watch me prosecute my first murder trial in 2014). We built a wonderful law firm. He worked tirelessly on his end because he believed that I could do it.
Two years--and still I'm a long way from where I want to be, as an attorney and business owner (ha, and programmer, I guess!), but here I am, doing it.