10/28/2022
It’s almost time… as excited as I am, I find myself just living in the moment everyday. I’m not counting down to his arrival, I’m enjoying my growing belly, all his somersault kicks, stretches on my bladder and the miracle of growing the love of my life in my body. Even through all the my body changes (sitting at 172lbs.), sleepless nights, body aches, feeling of exhaustion everyday and the feeling of the urge to p*e my pants every 10 minutes; I’m still enjoying every moment in my pregnancy. Just blissfully happy and stress-free.
People have always said, my life will change after I become a mom and I always knew it would but to what gravity; I had no idea. For some reason, I could never envision this time in my life (the pregnancy part) I was vein. I didn’t want to go through the body changes, and the mental and emotional part just terrified me.
I always knew I was meant to be a mom and I always knew the kind of mom I would be. I knew my love for my baby would make me the most vulnerable. A love so powerful, it could kill me but make me the happiest. A love, I was not ready to feel. A love, I constantly ran away from. A love that would have me wrapped around his lil fingers…
I don’t know who I am anymore. I feel feelings, I’ve never felt. I think about things, I’ve never thought about. Even the tone of my voice is different. I know I am entering the greatest chapter in my life. This journey has changed me forever… and I am forever grateful to God for my baby boy.
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